胡思乱想~

洗澡时,我总是爱带着手提电话进去~我不是在等电话或信息,我只是在播歌~每一首歌都会给我不同的感觉.....以前,好听的,不好听的;伤心的,开心的,只要我会唱,我都会跟着哼起歌来,或大展声喉~现在感觉不一样了,我都会选比较开心或比较安慰到自己的,因为我怕太悲伤的歌又会让我的眼泪偷偷地溜出来.....突然想起戴佩妮的"怎样"....我脑海就出现了很多如果的问题:

如果我们认识会是怎样?我又会和谁在一起?
如果当初我不背叛你又会是怎样?你会很疼我吗?
如果当初我不那么在意那些女孩, 我们回很幸福吗?.....

很多很多类似的问题都出现了,可是我却有点不敢想,担心自己会更后悔~担心自己回更伤心~

还记得,上次我打算送你的星星吗?那个装在chivas瓶的星星,记得吗?我很努力的把它装到了一半,要把他装满送给你,也许真的很难~因为,每当我很专心地在折时,我和你的种种事件都会浮显在我的脑袋~每次想到浪漫或很生气的事就会流下眼泪,因为这一切的一切,只是属于我和你的,可是,它们却成了过去~

还记得我们第一次是怎样认识的吗?当时,我们在hotlady也是现在的18,我第一次听你唱的歌是"彩虹",然而,我第一次唱给你听的是"Beatiful love"....那时的情景到现在还在我记忆中.....真的很怀念~如今,只要我唱起这首歌,我都会忍不住哭,因为这首歌开始了我们的恋情,但也是它结束了我们的关系~以前,你在kl念书时,远距离恋爱我们都可以维持一年~为何如今同在一个地方,我们却维持不了呢?当时,我还记得我们真的很爱对方,每天都会忍不住打给对方,就算知道电话费很贵~后来,你申请了个电话卡给我,号码是:0143382310~你的则是:0146561310~这个电话打给对方都不用钱~我真的好开心~但过了一阵子,你觉得和我说电话有点闲了~我觉得很伤心,但是只要我伤心打给你,你还是会陪我聊天,听我诉苦,听我哭,安慰我~反而, 你回来了~我伤心,你却总是很忙,不是佛堂的事,就是朋友聚会~总不会是第一时间来找我安慰我~有时连想在电话诉苦也不行~后来,你就越来越不理会我~老是忽冷忽~有时真的蛮可怜的~也许,我的好友不多,和我出去的更没几个~说秘密的更不用说~你自然就变成了我的中心~有什么事,第一时间想到的人是你~可是,我知道,我却不是你的中心....我不介意,因为他们是你的朋友和家人~但久了,却有其他女生的介入~小妹妹,你的旧女友等~有时真的很伤心,我能做什么?发脾气?骂你?在你面前哭?好好地跟你说?全部,我都试过了~有效,可是只是一下子~过了一阵子,又来了~你总会有一堆的借口~可是,试问谁能忍耐自己的男友和其他的女生信息多多呢?多到有时都忘了回复我的~真的好伤心~就那时我知道我在你的心中是不怎么重要的~事实证明我的猜测是对的~因为,那晚,你亲口告诉了我这个事实~我很蠢吧~又很好骗~偶尔来的关心就能赢回我的心~哄哄我~就能让我原谅你的过错~抱抱,亲亲我,我就觉的很幸福~每次走街都想紧紧地挽着你的手,告诉全世界,你是我的~可是,没想到,我还是被抛弃了~被抛弃时,还要告诉我,是我的错,是我先背叛你,弄到你没那么爱我~上个星期的我们还很开心的在一起~没想到过了几天,我们就成了两个世界的人~很想挽回~可是,我知道你不是这样想,因为我 阻挡着你的地球转,我肥,带我出去真的要很大的勇气~嘿嘿~也许飞掉这快猪肉才能找到所谓的天鹅吧~

夜了,是时候面对寂寞了~晚安咯~

哎呀~我有心病了~

我真的好象有心病了~><"整天爱发呆~有点不敢去看电话,因为怕知道他又没回我信息,没理我了~今天,我不知到怎么了~一直很想见见他,打给他~可是,他好象老是躲开我~不大回我信息,或接我的电话~看来真的是没回转了~嘿黑~

我嘛~这个人嘴硬,心软~就算我嘴巴在怎么说你的不好~其实你在我的心里是那么的重要~也许,我在你的心里就不是了~你嘴里说得多爱我,其实一点都不~你说你很努力地爱上曾经背叛过你的我~可是,你还是办不到~也许我和你分开,你会比较开心~我却是少了一分担心,不再担心自己的男友给人家抢~不再吃醋~

刚刚我在驾车回家的路上又再度发呆了~也许是因为发呆的关系吧~所以不知不觉也驾地蛮快的~不懂是幸运还是倒霉,我呀~差点要发生车祸了~因为前面那辆车撞到了正要进路口的另一辆车,他也就快快得break~在背后的我差点break不及~不过,最后还是break 到了~真是感谢上帝~要是以前的我一定是吓倒脚软,心跳到快要跳出来了~但,这次的我没有~我还在想要不要去找他~真的就是到了roundabout我很自然地转进了他的路口~在很自然地进了他的taman~然后,我停在一边,打电话给他,他却告诉我,他在海边~(海边离很远,我又是路痴所以就没办法去了~)在电话中,我听到他和他的朋友玩的蛮开心的~也许他离开我真的很快乐把~

希望,他也是这么快乐吧~伤心就让我来背好了~^_______________________^

再给多我一点时间,我一定可以从伤心走出来的~梁莉娜~你行的~haha ~

分手归分手~欠我的钱还给我~我不想情场失意~钱场也失意~><"

我单身了....

我也没想到也回有变成单身的一天,可是我还是单身了.....原来,你真的没那么爱我,我也许在你的心目中很贱对吧?呵呵...原来,你早早就想和我分手,只是说不出口....你说什么你不忍心伤害我,你都不知道,与你越旧,我觉得越爱你....同时,我也付出了很多,我的真心,我的时间,我脑袋,我的一切,它们都属于你....可是,你原来都不喜欢他们,我的这一切的一切......是!是我的错,当初,不是我主动认识你,我们就没有今天,当初不是我一犯再犯,你就不会这样....也许你现在是对我报复吧~如果是,我可以很大方的告诉你,你赢了...去庆祝吧....

梁莉娜,你很蠢哦~你不管在爱情和友情都是个输家....永远都不会是赢家....小小时就给大家boi cot...中学了又给自己的好友伤害....前后两次都给自己心爱的人抛弃.....嘿嘿~真的蛮悲惨的....
可是,今天更加笨,我以为我们出来也许大家面对面谈有回转的机会....哪知我们的感情却踏上了不归路....我还要面对面的让你告诉我,我是有多么天真,多么笨~我知道被人背叛了两次的感觉...我知道那个感觉....是真的有点难去面对,可是你的背叛,我真的让他变过去式了....因为,我真的很想和你在一起....原来,你不是....你是放在心里.....然后把这痛苦的感觉丢回给我.....

曾以为能在一起到久久....曾很想结婚的感觉....曾很想和你组织家庭的梦想....是一而再地提醒我....我的感情是很没价值.....因为一路来,都只是我单方面的想法.....

现在的我真的还是很想找你...可是我知道我没资格了.....我的心...开始有了个无底洞...伤疤好深好深.....现在的我哭得真的好累....变乖了的我,反而你不喜欢.....好了,再怎么写,也没人能了解我的心情.....嘿嘿 ~傻笑我的强项.....带上了面具就看不到我可悲的样子....

you make me be a crazy ppl~

I really cnt understand you as well as me.....when i know you very very very very close with others girl....(except isa them)i easy be a crazy ppl...or a bomb...don't know when is going to explode...i really feel  hurt whenever i see this ...can you juz open your heart let me join your world? Let me understand u more, can?...i really don't want like this...i really don't like it....i don't like you always try to hide something from me...not let me know.....once i know it....you was really spoil my mood....you was breaking me heart....making me down....can't you just share your problem with me?...why must share with others girl?....why i can't know?.....you let others know your weakness...why can't me?....i got many dream..really...But, they are not LV bag, rich or wat....juz i want be happy.....with my family, friends and YOU....juz a simple happy....But you seen like trying to break my dream...always say negative words to me...say something bad...about your planning,your future and also our future....untill now, i feel like a bit tired about it....coz i am trying very hard to understand you...But, you never open your heart to me....really tired....in this journey shouldn't always i give you support ...i'm also a human, i sometimes also nid support..... i also hope you come and understand me.....help me when i in doube...But not give me trouble....Do you understand what i want or not?

Confession Of A Secret Admirer....

Confession Of A Secret Admirer....你在facebook写着~

bad mood now~如果你不爱我,不要奘着我们还是恋爱的~很讨厌你每次都要去靠妞,靠少一点, sms少点会死哦?你当我死的啊?很讨厌~真的恨死~你们这些女孩子没事做,难不成就要来烦人家的男朋友吗?小心啊~你们会有报应的~有时只是想这样简简单单也不可以吗?要是你不爱我,告诉我啊~让我清醒,让我看清你的心~一次又一次的机会~是不是人原谅多了,你们也就会开始犯贱,一次又一次的试探着我的极限?pui~

lao gong=.=!!

stupid lao gong.....what also tell ppl=.=....promise me din tell but tell at the end too....c2p lao gong promise don't tell other ppl again, ok? This is our secret^.^ hehe~i'm so happy last night,you did't disappointed me when i sport check your handphone.BUT, now come a monkey ~.~haiz....why ah?why boy so like to kao lui 1?although got gf alrdy...I really can't understand.....Anyway, i still have a good day with u.....hehe~here is some pic^.^

cheesssssss pisang goreng~

mango sago~

this very very very yummy~^.^

i want eat many1 but lao gong dun gvT.T
coz kena er ma

sei sek d lou gong~

haha~don't angry me tht i put this pic here~

feel so old alrdy.....

hehe~

D@ting (21 march)

今天,老公陪我去走街^^因为他答应把星期日给以换取星期六的男人聚会~^.^首先,我们去斗湖最大的广场~虽然说是很大没错,可是都没什么好走的,因为没什么钱嘛^^呵呵~可是,我还是买了些 战利品~但,我的战利品回到家就送完出去了T.T....

嘿嘿~偷偷去抱商场里的大熊熊~

好软的熊熊哦~

然后我们去pizza~

老公很贪心,要叫多多又吃不完~哈哈~苯老公~之后,我们又到处乱^.^~也买了些东西~最后,我们就home sweet home lo^.^好好地休息休息~睡个幸福的午觉~嘿嘿~

晚上,我又去老公吃steamboat^.^~一边吃一边看lui lui 的歌唱比赛~lui lui唱得很好听一下^.^~支持下soul free d lui lui 加油~然后,臭老公就送我回家了~不过,回家前还不望给我good bye kiss^.^~

about my lao gong

Thursday, me and my lao gong go dating in eastern. Erm...no really dating, cause his dad also come along to fix something in his aunty's shop. Then, lao gong fetch his dad home and followed by going to Sega^.^~i not really like here d sega cause lack of choice~ My lao gong so bad, he then want fetch me home and go yam cha with a fung~so bad~So fast pit dai me at home and go out, i even din enjoy 2 people world.Then i show the sadness and disappointment on my face.When he saw my expression, he feel uneasy and quickly bring me to yam cha~ But, i quite unhappy about that already.haiz~Hating him also a hard thing for me~we then yam cha in Ali Topan^.^~i order a glass of orange juice~i love it~so tasty~lao gong order maggi goreng with ice-cream soda.We  then 'night' dream....haha.....we keep saying about our wedding screen~mercedes....super king....and many many^.^so happy~before home, he gave me a goodbye mailto:kiss%5E@%5Eso sweet~haha~

simple happy~

simple happy =?

New Friends

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New and Nice Teacher

(Cally Loo Hooi Teng + Miss Yong)

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Yummy Food

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Music

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Lovely family

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Nice, good,understand me and cute lao gong^.^

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my simple happy

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quite happy~knowing tht u stil care about me(makan cuka)

today is sunday.xD(nonsense)me and lao gong go sega in afternoon~we play very happy there.But suddenly, my lao gong ask me left there.Initially, i don't know wat happen actually.He then talk me tht he feeling unhappy about the malay boy keep looking at me as i wear quite sexy(he think). I can see tht anger had written all over his face, showing tht he really beh song about tht malay boy and my dreesing. He stil insist on leaving the sega there although we stil got some token. After we go into his car, he say:"next time want come sega don't wear like this~". He is quite angry tht i wear like this~ But i was happy at the time , because i know tht he don't like other boy see me^.^i know he stil care me and love me and MAKAN CUKA^.^haha~

心痛的感觉

那天，你有违背了我们之间的约定，你又和他们sms了。他们？对，是他们，是三个，不是两个（monyet，ting，霓）。最重要的是你和他们sms时，是我和你sms时。那是我找你，我要sms你两次，你才回我一次。我才发现你很忙，忙着和3-4（包括我）女生sms，忙到忘记回我。很伤心，我能做什么？虽然很不想哭，但我还是哭了~我悄悄从你的身边离开到你的书桌那。我也不晓得我在想什么，我只是一直在折星星，但我的眼泪不断落下来~之后，我很容易的就原谅你了，我以为我没事，对我伤害不大，我没去理他。

可是，原来我很介意，今天我又看到所谓的霓，我不知道怎么，我很自卑，我觉得我比不上她，我好像很讨厌他。后来，我的心情就一直闷闷不乐，弄到我心总是觉得刺刺的~满心痛~我现在可以了解我背叛你之后你的感受，我可以了解你所谓的伤害~真的很讨厌~越是不想去想它，我的脑子却满都是它~好累好累~是不是我开始讨厌你？也讨厌我自己了？